Chup-Chup's Blog II

A gay Argentinian in Israel, my daily life, my work, relationships, and whatever I feel like sharing.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

short weekend...

weekend was so short! after my thursday with C, i worked on friday morning until 3pm and had a wedding at night. i went with my ex cause the wedding was of a common friend. the event was in a very cool place, like and old winery in Yaffa. after working all day long i was really tired and the only food in my system was a coffee and a slice of cheese. of course that i had a lot of drinks in the wedding: started with 4 glasses of red wine, then 2 Martinis Bianco, a shot of whiskey and a Vodka Tonic...i was really happy (polite word to say totally drunk) and some friends lit a joint...it was sooo hard to refuse...
I also met a girl, is not like i'm into that now, but it was really funny cause she came to talk to me and I ended up discovering that she studies in Boston, in Tufts University...she invited me to check the site and offered help, she also left me her card...I'm blown away by that place, they offer exactly what i want to study...so now I only need to get accepted and 80k for the two year program... so i'm kind of down now, I know what i want to study but it's not easy for someone who started from zero, who has nothing in the world but himself to get accepted in a place like that. I'd really like to have parents that could help me instead of being me the one who helps them...I feel like rich people have a lot of chances while poor people don't...
I really believe in signs though, in the last couple of months when I started thinking about studying abroad, suddenly I started meeting super interesting people, studying in USA, giving me all kind of info, etc. So I was sitting alone in front of the computer yesterday and couldn't stop thinking: is all this a big sign for me to go after my dream of studying in USA or it's a cruel joke of destiny that is showing me the things i can't have?...i hope is the first option.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

earth day...

today in tel aviv we are turning our lights off for an hour (from 8pm to 9pm)...the idea is called "one hour for earth" and it is going to help our planet (at least a little bit)...
i don't know WTF will i do for an hour without light, computer, phone, etc...it will be boring, plus i have some questionnaires to check for tomorrow's class...
the week was crazy, plus i have my american friend C visiting, so i've been busy these days. but today i decided to spend the day with my friend and enjoy a little of his company. we went for breakfast at a really nice place a i like in a neighborhood called Neve Tzedek, then we walked to the beach and went to the Hilton beach (the gay beach). We talked a lot and it was fun, plus I got a little tan and wwe got the see some gay guys (most of them turists). he is sleeping now and i guess i'm going to the gym (after seeing all those muscular guys i really need to start doing something with my body).

Friday, March 21, 2008

surprise...

9.30pm, my phone rings, the caller ID gives a bunch of numbers...it's a call from abroad:
-hello?
- hi, it's me (in Spanish)
i knew that voice...it was him, the guy from Istanbul, the American guy...my heart was in my throat. i knew he was coming to israel, but i was expecting him in a week...besides, after Istanbul and the little communication in the last months i thought that things were cooling down between us.
- where r u?
- home, i said.
- i'm outside, he answered.
in a second i was outside and there he was, cute as usual, he gave me a bear hug and a kiss in my lips...it was all back there, like if distance didn't exist between us. he was with a friend, they invited me to join them for drinks...i went back home, had a shower and met them in Evita. we had some drinks, then other friend of his joined...it was kind of crowded for my taste, i wanted him only for me...we went to other pub, one of his friends disappeared...and the other left after a while. we were all so drunk, usually that's when we feel free enough to say stuff we wouldn't say being sober..."you are not my friend, there is something much deeper between us", he said. i loved that sentece, i know we can't be together, but that moment was perfect. we decided to look for the friend...but before we couldn't hold it anymore and kissed like we do...in the dark, with that passion i only feel with him. we found the friend in the toilette, totally wasted...
"let's take him to the hotel and then let's go to ur place", C said to me...i wasn't sure he would offer that, i was so happy...in the hotel we realise that the friend was in a bad situatuion..."i have to stay, he is my friend" C told me, my heart fell to the floor..."but stay here with me tonight please" he added... i stayed, we did it like we know, long and passionate, lots of kissing and looking into eachothers eyes...then we slept all night, huging as we both like...not leting the other go even for a sec.
i have a bittersweet taste in my mouth (and not because of the hangover). i guess i finally understood him and his postion; i've been raised in the land of the soap operas, i like romantic endings...but he is 100% pragmatic, in his world there is no way for us to be together, he lives in the states, i live here...there is an ocean between us...but there is also something deeper, we like each other, we care the one for the other, maybe if we were in the same place (both physically and in life)... but we know we are there, thinking about the other.

i really like this song, it's and Israeli artist that lives in France...Yael Naim, New Soul:

Monday, March 17, 2008

back from madrid...




so i'm back from spain...it was a cool trip and madrid is always fun. as it was work realted i was not supposed to have much fun but i ate a lot, was drunk every night and even went out to a really trashy place. everyday i had meetings, but at night business dinners...the thing is thatin spain it means eating a lot and getting drunk...actually everything means that in spain...i totally fit in that country (except for the fact i'm jew and spanish are not much of jew lovers).
the last day i had the day off, i went to a very cool exibition of Modiggliani, i also walked around Chueca (the gay neighborhood) and did some shopping on Fuencarral street and Gran Via...ohhh i also bought some books.
so after all it was nice, sure i didn't have sex (since my hotel blocked gaydar and every gay related site), but spanish guys are not so hot anyways.
here are some pics of me wearing a shirt (not that usual), me with Leo in a party (there were even mariachis in that party) and "working".

Friday, March 7, 2008

madrid...here i come

i'm leaving next sunday to madrid...it is going to be cold! i bought myself a nice coat that i expect the company to pay for, i also got my personal cards and a new phone to use there. i hope things work out there and i 'wow' my stupid boss...there u go bitch i'm not an idiot as the rest of ur department.
saddly, i don't think i'll have enough time to enjoy the gay scene there...i have meetings, business dinners and a conference to attend to...at least my last day there i'm finally meeting my friend Fernando, we used to read each other's blogs and we have been friends for 3 years...but we never met in person, so i'm really excited.
i guess i'll post something from madrid then...