i don't know...

last thursday i went to have some drinks with a friend. in the pub we were sitting i saw at the back a guy in a wheel chair (not a simple one, but one with a motor). it was dark but i thought that the guy that was sitting next to him was holding his hand...after a while it was obvious they were together, you could see the love in their eyes, and how they took care at each other.
after spending the weekend with friends, but not with O, and realizing that I haven't seen him almost in a week I understood that something is not working right...i've tried to give him his space and not to push but when u start dating someone i think the natural thing is to want to meet...meeting once a week is not what i want.
at first i took it as lack of interest from his side, which probably is the case, but i won't blame him, i'll say what i have to say from my side: i don't know if he is not interested, but i don't want to be with someone like this. you can be as busy as you want, we all are...but when you are really into someone, you look for the time...and i don't feel he does. so i rather take the risk and give him the impression i'm pushing instead of sitting here and waiting until he finds a moment for me.
i want, and i deserve, someone who looks at me with the love those two guys were looking at each other.
this is a song of the kings of leon, i love it and i'm sure u'll get why: